My Intricate Wonders of Life

Sure once we make it through a stressful time, we get to relax a bit, life seems a bit more easy. But it’s only temporary. Don’t get me wrong, temporary easiness is awesome and it should be enjoyed because we need that break. We need that time to relax. But sometimes people are overwhelmed by stress and are always on a deadline. They don’t see this break very often and life becomes a constant battle. It may seem never ending, but what we need to do is focus more closely on what we value. What we like. What makes us smile. Who we love and who loves us. If we build a wall of all our happiest values, memories, goals and dreams and put more emphasis on all these wonderful things, then our negativity seems less important. Stress could sometimes be thought as a tool for productivity and motivation, though it is still a pain in the ass sometimes. The human race would not function without stress, so it is a good thing at times but no matter what, we all need to relax from time to time. So everyday do something that you enjoy and brings you peace, like reading a book, playing video games, or tumblin. Life will always have challenges but that doesn’t mean we can’t enjoy them from time to time and learn from them. Through our experiences, thoughts and inspirations, the way we deal with obstacles and the way we live our lives, can get easier. 

It’s weird that it seems so much longer but not all at the same time. I spend every week looking forward to sleeping over at your house on Fridays, and then waking up next to you. I love how we always say goodnight to each other and how you always make me feel better. I love how you’re only a 5 minute drive away and how you stop by after work, even for a little while. I love that I can always count on you and trust you no matter what. Being with you has been amazing and I know it will continue to be. I love you so much. Happy 10 months =D <3

It’s true. I find it hard to see friend after friend after friend struggling through sadness, through pain, and trying to mke ends meet. Conflicted with the choice of hanging on or letting go. Fighting, fleeing or drinking. It’s weird for me because I’m in this little bubble watching this unfold around me. I let them know that I’m there for them, that I care. That the pain is temporary and that good times will come again. There is always hope. One of my friends is going through a bad breakup, he hasn’t gotten a good nights sleep in a long time and isn’t thinking clearly. He got 5 minutes through work and is calling for a ride to the hospital as I type this…The hard part is that there’s nothing I can do to help him, aside from letting him know that I’m there for him, to talk, to chill, to give advice, but I can’t give him what he wants most. That’s what bothers me……The same goes for all of my friends too. I wish I could help more, I really do. But we all have to live our own lives, learn our own lessons, and strengths and be there for one another. If life were easy, we could give everyone what they want, but it’s not like that.

Depression ends only if you let it end. It can be faught and it can be beat. We have to look within ourselves for the solution, because we have it. We have the ability to love, laugh, smile, think, talk, and see through our tears. If we think more positive thoughts, more positive actions will come as a result of it. I know it’s hard, but it’s true. Postive thinking is scientifically proven to help create better results because it is how we think about ourselves and our lives that leads the way we live. We need to keep believing. So lift your head up, stop feeling sorry for yourself, put the razor blade down, don’t hate yourself, stop hating, cry it all out until there are no tears left, and think about everything in your life that you love, that can make you smile. Because there is always hope. Life is so beautiful and so precious, please enjoy it as much as you can.

-LiveLR

And a long one at that. Am I the only one who feels like this year feels longer than normal?

Like everyone, my year has had it’s ups and downs. There’s been good, bad, life, death, love, worry, and excitement. Mostly excitement of what the future will hold. I graduated high school, started college, and now I think I want to pursue a career in psychology…maybe neuroscience, I don’t know yet, but I’m excited to find out. I love college, I love learning about what I’m interested in and meeting amazing people in this journey. I’ve made many friends this year and became closer to friends I already have. For the last 7 months of this year, I’ve had my boyfriend to cheer me up, support me, and help me through times of stress. I love him so much, he’s the best.

I’ve learnt alot in this year. One thing is that there is no use dwelling on the past. You live in the here and now, so you have to make it count. Tell your friends and family you love them. Do what’s best for you, motivation is the key to success. If you want something, you have to work for it. You need to think and act for yourself because there is only one you, and you are beautiful no matter what. What people think of you shouldn’t change what you think of yourself. Thinking positively is best done when you think about what you want and what you deserve by planning ahead and into the future. If you think negatively or are a pessimist, it’s probably because you keep thinking of past mistakes, past tragedies, past heartaches and if you keep living in your past, you will miss your present and ruin your future in the outcome. To change this you need to change your attitude and your thoughts. Always believe. If you think positively, postive outcomes will occur.

Life is short, but beautiful. I hope all of you will have a great New Year!

Today’s Valentine’s day and my awesome boyfriend got me flowers and made me special heart chocolates and took me to see a movie. I love you so much!

Earlier I visited some friends at my old high school which was good times, then I went and handed out some resumes. I applied at Mr. Pet’s, Bosley’s Pet Food, Pet Food ‘N More (I figured I would have a somewhat good chance at getting hired at a pet store because I have experience working at a dog kennel), Warehouse One, and Shoe Warehouse. A half an hour after I finished dropping off resumes, Shoe Warehouse called me asking me in for an interview on thursday. I am so excited! I would actually love to get experience as a sales associate. I want to build a very solid, colourful and impressive resume. I want to try new things, have a variety of job experience and one day maybe get a career as a psychologist. I also want to try being a waitress, work in a grocery store, be a bartender or work in a liquor store, work in a kitchen, work in a warehouse, and work with kids maybe…I don’t know. I want to explore options. I’m excited for the future and what it has to offer.  But most of all I’m enjoying the present moment. I’m feeling love and hope around me and no matter what goes wrong, I’ll always have that, and I’m grateful!

It’s been 8 months since we started dating and I’ve never been happier. You are so amazing and you mean so much to me. I couldn’t imagine these past months without you, you just brighten my day everyday. I love you so much =) <3

So a little over a month ago, my grandpa passed away because of cancer. He was sick for this whole year, and it was hard to watch him get sicker and sicker. He came to my high school graduation in June which meant the world to me. In November he passed and it was hard on my family, especially my mom. We had a funeral for him on December 3rd and I read a poem I wrote with my (great) aunt at the service. A poem that really symbolized the way he viewed life.

Now my (great) aunt is sick. She has two masses (or tumors) in her brain. We don’t know if it’s cancer or not. I noticed she was acting abit differently, but she was also having hearing problems, so I didn’t expect anything serious until on Christmas Eve, I saw that she was wearing her pants inside out. This started concerning me abit…but today, when I found out it was this serious…It’s just unreal. She’s one of the most healthy people I know. She’s a vegetarian. She doesn’t drink, smoke or do any drugs. She’s fit, loves the outdoors, loves being with people, and she’s just all around young at heart (she teaches preschool afterall). She can’t have cancer..I don’t ever want that to happen.

Earlier this year, my great grandmother passed away in February. She lived a long life, but nearing the end she became addicted to her pain medication, morphine. She ended up dying on her husband’s birthday, which she wanted more than anything, just so she can be in heaven with her husband on her birthday. I thought this was rather remarkable…I was never very close to her, but my heart went out to my grandma because she lost her mom.

My grandma is such an incredibly strong woman. She’s lost her mom and husband this year, and now her sister is in the hospital going to have brain surgery soon..I’m not sure how I could handle all of that in one year, but she does, and she continues to stay positive. It’s truly amazing.